Wow! So down today

And just can't shake it. I'll try to make some bracelets. Art usually makes me feel better.

Listening to Jackson Browne makes me feel better because I always end up crying and that helps. I saw him in concert twice when I was younger:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXTDIr3egbE&feature=related "Late For The Sky"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UHoWsrECE6w&feature=channel "Sky Blue and Black"


I never had depression in my life until 3 years ago when a bunch of major things happened to me all at once--my long time boyfriend of over 9 years broke up with me, my son moved to his dad's because he missed the city so much (San Francisco), I had major surgery (pancreatic tumor size of a grapefruit removed along with spleen and part of pancreas), and the surgeon did a hack job and left me with a premanent condition because of a damaged nerve he inadvertantly hit that bothers me every day (my stomach), one of my cat ran away while I was in the hospital and died two months later, lost my home, my stuff ended up in storage, and a few other things.

Sky Blue and Black:

In the calling out to one another
Of the lovers up and down the strand
In the sound of the waves and the cries
Of the seagulls circling the sandIn the fragments of the songs
Carried down the wind from some radio
In the murmuring of the city in the distance
Ominous and low

I hear the sound of the world where we played
And the far too simple beauty
Of the promises we made

If you ever need holding
Call my name, I'll be there
If you ever need holdingAnd no holding back,
I'll see you through
Sky blue and black

Where the touch of the lover ends
And the soul of the friend begins
There's a need to be separate and a need to be one
And a struggle neither wins

Where you gave me the world I was in
And a place I could make a stand
I could never see how you doubted me
When I'd let go of your hand
Yeah, and I was much younger then
And I must have thought that I would know
If things were going to end

And the heavens were rolling
Like a wheel on a track
And our sky was unfolding
And it'll never fold back
Sky blue and black

And I'd have fought the world for you
If I thought that you wanted me to
Or put aside what was true or untrue
If I'd known that's what you needed
What you needed me to do

But the moment has passed by me now
To have put away my pride
And just come through for you somehow

If you ever need holding
Call my name, I'll be thereIf you ever need holding
And no holding back, I'll see you through

You're the color of the sky
Reflected in each store-front window pane
You're the whispering and the sighing
Of my tires in the rain
You're the hidden cost and the thing that's lost
In everything I do

Yeah and I'll never stop looking for you
In the sunlight and the shadows
And the faces on the avenue
That's the way love is
That's the way love is
That's the way love is
Sky blue and black

(c) 1993 SWALLOW TURN MUSIC, ASCAP
Category: Music